Labor is finished

[valarltd]

And I have given birth to a 10,103 word piece of lesbian erotica.

I tried to figure out why I don't like writing lesbian sex. The conclusion I came to was that it involves men. I've seen so many men leer and smack and go "oh baby that's so hot!" when in reality they'd punch a woman and called her a "fucking dyke," when they'd vote against gay marriage, when they'd much rather all of us looked like lipstick lesbans and not as we actually do, when they throw their own lesbian daughters out of the house and kill 15 year old girls who identify as such.

It feels like I am putting a piece of my sexuality, one that has nothing to do with men, out to be pawed over like yard sale merchandise. It feels like a minstrel show.

The only reason I managed this was because I know Torquere's readership is mostly female and because I loved the concept.

But "Rock Us All Down" is done. I'll be editing it tomorrow and send it off Monday.

Comments

[raincitygirl.livejournal.com]

Very interesting reasons, and they make sense to me.

[valarltd.livejournal.com]

Please note, I am not saying all men are like this.

Just that the guys I've encountered on forums and mailing lists, when asked about real-life gay issues, are all "eeeeeewwww, kill the queers and pass the lesbo-porn."

There are, I'm sure, men who read lesbian erotica, work for gay rights and love their lesbian family members.

I just didn't encounter any in the "full make up and manicure, and baby stuff those holes" crowd of readers.

[creatorschilde.livejournal.com]

Id love to read it, honestly. And I agree with you, its difficult putting yourself on the line like that.

Congrats on completing it.

BTW - ot but - has it occured to you that Corban is the anit-christ? *giggles*

[valarltd.livejournal.com]

I'll get you a copy tomorrow. For as long as it is, there's not a lot of sex.


Actually, that thought had not occurred to me. Probably a good sign I'm shedding my PreMillennialist thought. All I know is that Nick is being miserable in my head.

[creatorschilde.livejournal.com]

why is he being miserable?

[valarltd.livejournal.com]

Because he can't manage to do anything quite right, it seems. He's fine with the politics and restructuring. But his personal life is in shambles. Which is, of course, only to be expected.

[creatorschilde.livejournal.com]

true, but Corban will pu thtat back together again too.
Positive of that.