The Biggie
Dec. 13th, 2002 08:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
valarltdThe entry that puts the "me" in Meme.
1) I am a white female.
2) I am a Scorpio with Virgo Rising and an Opposed Moon.
3) I was born at midnight.
4) I'm 35.
5) I grew up in a town named Peculiar.
6) I am a 13 year Girl Scout, 10 years in the Cookie Corps, 1 as a leader, 2 as a volunteer.
7) I've been married 13 years.
8) I love my husband more now than I have at any other point, including the "I can't live without him" phase just before the wedding.
9) I met my husband when I was 18.
10) I've known I was bisexual, with a preference for men, since I was 15.
11) I've had BDSM fantasies since I was 12.
12) I've been making my own sex toys since I was 13.
13) I have 4 children, aged 11, 7, 4, 2.
14) I started writing fanfiction in 1982, not knowing what it was called.
15) My first crush on a fictional character was a tie between Speed Racer and Disney's Robin Hood.
16) My favorite book as a small child was Tom Sawyer.
17) My favorite book now is Delusions of Grandma by Carrie Fisher.
18) The earliest TV program I remember watching was "Star Trek." "Lost in Space" and "Wild Wild West" rated right up there with "Romper Room" for me at age 3 and 4.
19) My parents divorced when I was 2.
20) My mom remarried when I was 4.
21) I have a younger sister on my father's side and one on my mother's side.
22) Sister on Dad's side is a grad school drop-out, an administrative coordinator and a slasher.
23) Sister on Mom's side is a HS graduate, waitress and races mud trucks.
24) I have 2 nieces by my younger sister.
25) My husband has 2 siblings. I have 4 nieces and a nephew on that side.
26) My secret reading vice is picture books. I love kid-lit.
27) T.S. Eliot is my all time favorite poet.
28) Sylvia Plath is my second.
29) Julian May is my favorite SF writer.
30) Ray Bradbury and Harlan Ellison tie for my favorite fiction writer.
31) I drive a minivan with a license frame that reads "Evil Geniuses for a Better Tomorrow."
32) I have burstitis in my right knee.
33) I have artificially constructed eardrums and 40% hearing loss.
34) I have scoliosis.
35) I carry color-blindness.
36) I have a permanent retainer cemented to my lower canines.
37) I work as a circulation services coordinator at a university library.
38) I am looking at getting an MLS and becoming a real librarian.
39) I like to cook.
40) I hate to clean.
41) I don't like peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
42) I don't like bologna sandwiches.
43) I adore egg-salad sandwiches.
44) I know too many ways to cook hamburger and turkey.
45) I've compiled a cookbook.
46) I crochet.
47) I embroider.
48) I do counted cross-stitch.
49) I sew.
50) I want to learn to knit cabled sweaters.
51) I run three websites.
52) I write almost constantly.
53) I love music. It's like I'm storing it against a day when I'm entirely deaf.
54) My musical play list includes The Eurythmics, the Statler Brothers, Steeleye Span, Weird Al Yankovic, The Police, Elton John, Maid in the Myddle, Billy Joel, Gentleman Jim Reeves, Enya and the Dixie Chicks.
55) I can be homophobic in 5 languages, 2 of which I created.
56) My colors are "True Cresset Autumn."
57) My hair has been dyed since the 1991 St. Patrick's Day parade. I was being a fire-mage and dyed it red.
58) My favorite dye is Clairol's Nice and Easy, #107
59) I am 5'11 1/2" I say I am 6'.
60) My net persona is a succubus. Complete with wings, fangs and talons. The tail makes my (virtual) fanny look fat, so I leave it in Otherspace.
61) I've traveled to or through 34 of the contiguous 48 states.
62) I've not been to the Pacific Northwest, New England or the Carolinas.
63) I've lived in 2 states.
64) I've worked in 5 states.
65) I've worked as everything from inventory counter to casino player's club clerk. I never want to wait tables, work fast food, or telemarket again.
66) I've modeled for medical textbooks.
67) My drag persona's name is Andrew. His lady is Ashley.
68) My SCA persona is Aethelynde Thorvaldsdottir.
69) My last girlfriend was a stripper.
70) I homeschooled for 2 years. (The resident heretic in the local support group)
71) I have a black cat named Thomas.
72) I don't like dogs.
73) I try to grow a garden every year. This year we got 4 tomatoes, an eggplant and a mess of greenbeans from it.
74) $860 of my monthly $1220 take-home goes to day care.
75) I bicycle.
76) I always said I would have time to read. Lately, I struggle to eke out 15 minutes of time before bed.
77) I donate blood regularly.
78) I am a registered bone marrow donor.
79) I am a registered organ donor.
80) I consume too much caffiene, as soda and tea both.
81) I can't swim.
82) I have horrors of drowning or faling from a height.
83) After too many years in a homophobic church, I am justly leery of organized religion.
84) I find myself thinking racist thoughts too often for comfort. Any group that is 15% of the population but commits 50% of the crimes has something seriously wrong. I often think if the North had just let the South go, the USA would have fewer problems than it does today. The CSA would be a mess, but it wouldn't be *our* mess.
85) I'm a misogynist. I've always felt rather fraudulant when it comes to being around women, especially very feminine women. Like I was giving a bad performance of what I thought they expect a girl to be. And I saw too many who didn't have a brain in their heads (or acted that way) when I was growing up.
86) I hate living where I do. I hate being so far from my folks. I don't like the accent, the culture or the food.
87) If my husband died tomorrow, we would be moving so fast heads would swim. (Enough on this. These last 4 are all part and parcel. The anger and bitterness are going to my head and I have to work)
88) I love hot showers.
89) Chocolate raspberry anything, and I will follow you home.
90) I like my steaks very rare.
91) I harbor the ugly knowledge I am not a very nice person.
92) I'm an intellectual elitist because I grew up gifted in an unsympathetic environment. Smug superiority was a defense in the face of socially-imposed inferiority.
93) I have sneaking suspicions I'll never be more than a mediocre writer.
94) Having supressed my own emotions for so many years, I have great difficulty connecting to how characters feel.
95) I lose my temper with real people having feelings.
96) I never apologize for anything I say on-line. I spent half my life apologizing for existing, I refuse to do so any longer.
97) I love movies because they let me connect with feelings for a short time.
98) I believe we are the sum of the stories we tell ourselves.
99) I think all myths are the same Myth, but fragmented versions.
100) I want to grow my hair to the backs of my knees.
Now I feel all drained and flaky.
I included nothing about fandom, and little about faith, both of which are very important.
I could go again, but that would only get uglier, given the mood I am now in.
I might even use the words "those people."
1) I am a white female.
2) I am a Scorpio with Virgo Rising and an Opposed Moon.
3) I was born at midnight.
4) I'm 35.
5) I grew up in a town named Peculiar.
6) I am a 13 year Girl Scout, 10 years in the Cookie Corps, 1 as a leader, 2 as a volunteer.
7) I've been married 13 years.
8) I love my husband more now than I have at any other point, including the "I can't live without him" phase just before the wedding.
9) I met my husband when I was 18.
10) I've known I was bisexual, with a preference for men, since I was 15.
11) I've had BDSM fantasies since I was 12.
12) I've been making my own sex toys since I was 13.
13) I have 4 children, aged 11, 7, 4, 2.
14) I started writing fanfiction in 1982, not knowing what it was called.
15) My first crush on a fictional character was a tie between Speed Racer and Disney's Robin Hood.
16) My favorite book as a small child was Tom Sawyer.
17) My favorite book now is Delusions of Grandma by Carrie Fisher.
18) The earliest TV program I remember watching was "Star Trek." "Lost in Space" and "Wild Wild West" rated right up there with "Romper Room" for me at age 3 and 4.
19) My parents divorced when I was 2.
20) My mom remarried when I was 4.
21) I have a younger sister on my father's side and one on my mother's side.
22) Sister on Dad's side is a grad school drop-out, an administrative coordinator and a slasher.
23) Sister on Mom's side is a HS graduate, waitress and races mud trucks.
24) I have 2 nieces by my younger sister.
25) My husband has 2 siblings. I have 4 nieces and a nephew on that side.
26) My secret reading vice is picture books. I love kid-lit.
27) T.S. Eliot is my all time favorite poet.
28) Sylvia Plath is my second.
29) Julian May is my favorite SF writer.
30) Ray Bradbury and Harlan Ellison tie for my favorite fiction writer.
31) I drive a minivan with a license frame that reads "Evil Geniuses for a Better Tomorrow."
32) I have burstitis in my right knee.
33) I have artificially constructed eardrums and 40% hearing loss.
34) I have scoliosis.
35) I carry color-blindness.
36) I have a permanent retainer cemented to my lower canines.
37) I work as a circulation services coordinator at a university library.
38) I am looking at getting an MLS and becoming a real librarian.
39) I like to cook.
40) I hate to clean.
41) I don't like peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
42) I don't like bologna sandwiches.
43) I adore egg-salad sandwiches.
44) I know too many ways to cook hamburger and turkey.
45) I've compiled a cookbook.
46) I crochet.
47) I embroider.
48) I do counted cross-stitch.
49) I sew.
50) I want to learn to knit cabled sweaters.
51) I run three websites.
52) I write almost constantly.
53) I love music. It's like I'm storing it against a day when I'm entirely deaf.
54) My musical play list includes The Eurythmics, the Statler Brothers, Steeleye Span, Weird Al Yankovic, The Police, Elton John, Maid in the Myddle, Billy Joel, Gentleman Jim Reeves, Enya and the Dixie Chicks.
55) I can be homophobic in 5 languages, 2 of which I created.
56) My colors are "True Cresset Autumn."
57) My hair has been dyed since the 1991 St. Patrick's Day parade. I was being a fire-mage and dyed it red.
58) My favorite dye is Clairol's Nice and Easy, #107
59) I am 5'11 1/2" I say I am 6'.
60) My net persona is a succubus. Complete with wings, fangs and talons. The tail makes my (virtual) fanny look fat, so I leave it in Otherspace.
61) I've traveled to or through 34 of the contiguous 48 states.
62) I've not been to the Pacific Northwest, New England or the Carolinas.
63) I've lived in 2 states.
64) I've worked in 5 states.
65) I've worked as everything from inventory counter to casino player's club clerk. I never want to wait tables, work fast food, or telemarket again.
66) I've modeled for medical textbooks.
67) My drag persona's name is Andrew. His lady is Ashley.
68) My SCA persona is Aethelynde Thorvaldsdottir.
69) My last girlfriend was a stripper.
70) I homeschooled for 2 years. (The resident heretic in the local support group)
71) I have a black cat named Thomas.
72) I don't like dogs.
73) I try to grow a garden every year. This year we got 4 tomatoes, an eggplant and a mess of greenbeans from it.
74) $860 of my monthly $1220 take-home goes to day care.
75) I bicycle.
76) I always said I would have time to read. Lately, I struggle to eke out 15 minutes of time before bed.
77) I donate blood regularly.
78) I am a registered bone marrow donor.
79) I am a registered organ donor.
80) I consume too much caffiene, as soda and tea both.
81) I can't swim.
82) I have horrors of drowning or faling from a height.
83) After too many years in a homophobic church, I am justly leery of organized religion.
84) I find myself thinking racist thoughts too often for comfort. Any group that is 15% of the population but commits 50% of the crimes has something seriously wrong. I often think if the North had just let the South go, the USA would have fewer problems than it does today. The CSA would be a mess, but it wouldn't be *our* mess.
85) I'm a misogynist. I've always felt rather fraudulant when it comes to being around women, especially very feminine women. Like I was giving a bad performance of what I thought they expect a girl to be. And I saw too many who didn't have a brain in their heads (or acted that way) when I was growing up.
86) I hate living where I do. I hate being so far from my folks. I don't like the accent, the culture or the food.
87) If my husband died tomorrow, we would be moving so fast heads would swim. (Enough on this. These last 4 are all part and parcel. The anger and bitterness are going to my head and I have to work)
88) I love hot showers.
89) Chocolate raspberry anything, and I will follow you home.
90) I like my steaks very rare.
91) I harbor the ugly knowledge I am not a very nice person.
92) I'm an intellectual elitist because I grew up gifted in an unsympathetic environment. Smug superiority was a defense in the face of socially-imposed inferiority.
93) I have sneaking suspicions I'll never be more than a mediocre writer.
94) Having supressed my own emotions for so many years, I have great difficulty connecting to how characters feel.
95) I lose my temper with real people having feelings.
96) I never apologize for anything I say on-line. I spent half my life apologizing for existing, I refuse to do so any longer.
97) I love movies because they let me connect with feelings for a short time.
98) I believe we are the sum of the stories we tell ourselves.
99) I think all myths are the same Myth, but fragmented versions.
100) I want to grow my hair to the backs of my knees.
Now I feel all drained and flaky.
I included nothing about fandom, and little about faith, both of which are very important.
I could go again, but that would only get uglier, given the mood I am now in.
I might even use the words "those people."
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lies, damnable lies and statistics
Date: 2002-12-14 12:50 pm (UTC)You're right that the better educated blacks aren't committing these crimes. They're too busy defrauding the tax payers via Cherokee (subsidized childcare payments) and county credit cards around here. Of course, it's small potatoes next to Enron.
I think blaming society and economic factors is a cop-out. Most poor people aren't thieves or dope pushers.
I think a lot of it is the subculture that does not value males. I see white males starting to show some of the same problems that black men had twenty years ago, the biggest being an obsolescence. Women consider them obsolete, useful only for sex, and if they decide to make babies. Women aren't bothering to help civilize and acculturate males, so they're sinking to the lowest attitudes they can get away with.
And I'm ranting.