Thoughts

[valarltd]

I think I have gafiated.

I don't read any of the fannish mailing lists. I need to resign as listmom.
I don't read fannish squee in anyone's LJ.
I don't watch source.
I don't vid.
I don't read or write much fic.
I don't want to go to cons anymore, except as a guest.
I don't contribute meta.

And this year, the thought of signing up for yuletide fills me with weariness and dread instead of excitement.

My first thought was "I need November to write Alive on the Inside. I can't sacrifice three pages to yuletide." And I thought of the usual headdesk. And the hassle of writing to spec.


The Den of Debauchery will remain open.
The LJ will stay in place.

and if the fannish squee returns, it will be spread. If it doesn't, ah well.

The really awful part is that I'm not even sad to be leaving fandom. Just kind of...pensive.

Comments

To be honest

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I am surprised this did't happen last year or the year before. You've been involved in fandom literally what 25 plus years? It's been a great incubator for your talents but you've gone from other peoples' characters to your own. There has not been material out there that has energized and interested you because you're busy creating your own stuff. I am sure we have not heard your last fanish squee (I am thinking as long as Oded is working, there exists squeeing opportunity.

Congrads Peter Pan, a grown up ye be.