Thoughts

[valarltd]

I think I have gafiated.

I don't read any of the fannish mailing lists. I need to resign as listmom.
I don't read fannish squee in anyone's LJ.
I don't watch source.
I don't vid.
I don't read or write much fic.
I don't want to go to cons anymore, except as a guest.
I don't contribute meta.

And this year, the thought of signing up for yuletide fills me with weariness and dread instead of excitement.

My first thought was "I need November to write Alive on the Inside. I can't sacrifice three pages to yuletide." And I thought of the usual headdesk. And the hassle of writing to spec.


The Den of Debauchery will remain open.
The LJ will stay in place.

and if the fannish squee returns, it will be spread. If it doesn't, ah well.

The really awful part is that I'm not even sad to be leaving fandom. Just kind of...pensive.

Comments

[sydmcginley.livejournal.com]

hugs you.

It's a rite of passage baby.
And painful as they all are.
Leaving home and off on your own quest.
Those that stay don't always like that you leave.

I sat and wrote my own stuff last night even with Dr Who audible in the next room. Just a few months ago I'd have said you were nuts to suggest I do such a thing.


We get more original Angel stuff right? Then the world is better for this.

[valarltd.livejournal.com]

uh, yeah.
I have at least 3 more coming this year, and a couple for next year.
(plus at least 3 more for next year that aren't contracted)