valarltd | One of those moments when you realize you've put too much of yourself on the page

“Because I might as well not even be gay if I hate having sex with men. This is just like broccoli and mushrooms and working out. I'll get more used to it the more I do it. I might even learn to like it. And I want to like it, because I love you and part of me gets very excited by the idea of you making love to me. The rest of me knows I'm only enthused about the idea and not the reality. I need to be excited about the reality, and not just the words and ideas. Am I making any sense?”

Poor AJ.
I know exactly how he feels.