tired on a Friday

It's been a rough couple days.
They keep loading me trannies without a pallet jack. Yes, I can use a 2" canvas strap to drag the 225 lb. critters. Works better than the two-wheeler, actually.

Yesterday, I delivered 2 trannies and picked up 5. I delivered 1 cage and picked up 3. My return trailer was full to the doors. Today wasn't as bad. My big deliveries were huge, though. 135 pieces at one dealer.

Today, I'm just achy. My laundry is running, and I'm going to talk to Mom.

Bun's at a football game. THE game: West Memphis vs Marion.

Dollface was so tired yesterday, she crashed and burnt after school. I came home to find her looking like a baby, on her tummy, her knees under her, her feet crossed, her face all slack.
Last gasp of babyhood.

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Joyfully Reviewed didn't much like "Paying Forfeits" But i linked them anyway. Good and bad reviews, all publicity is good publicity.

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http://www.worldoflongmire.com/features/romance_novels/readers_covers.htm
romance cover silliness

Thoughts

I think I have gafiated.

I don't read any of the fannish mailing lists. I need to resign as listmom.
I don't read fannish squee in anyone's LJ.
I don't watch source.
I don't vid.
I don't read or write much fic.
I don't want to go to cons anymore, except as a guest.
I don't contribute meta.

And this year, the thought of signing up for yuletide fills me with weariness and dread instead of excitement.

My first thought was "I need November to write Alive on the Inside. I can't sacrifice three pages to yuletide." And I thought of the usual headdesk. And the hassle of writing to spec.


The Den of Debauchery will remain open.
The LJ will stay in place.

and if the fannish squee returns, it will be spread. If it doesn't, ah well.

The really awful part is that I'm not even sad to be leaving fandom. Just kind of...pensive.