Fandom thoughts

Or, So this is what Gafiation feels like

I've noticed that iver the last year I've had less and less interest in doing anything fannish.

I mean, I'll view the source and squee, but there is no fanfic.
I'll hear a song and go "ooo, that'd be a great *insert fandom* vid" but it never gets made.
I don't participate in my mailing lists.
I don't read fanfic.

I'm sure part of this is Fandom high fallout.
Some of it is professional writing deadlines and pressure.
Some of it is family stress.
And some of it is job stress.

Writing for jedi__santa was like pulling teeth. I'm not pleased with the story, but I turned it in anyway.

I haven't even started yuletide. 3_ships, ironically enough, is coming nicely. 571 words.

And those are the only fanfiction I've written this year!

I am actually dreading Media West this year. I don't want to sit in panels and watch fanvids and stuff. I'd rather spend the holiday weekend writing.

I'm finding my own characters much more engaging.

Song of the day

Mary, Mary by Skinny White Chick. As an antidote to "Mary, did you know?"

Sun rises behind clouds soft and slow
your mother sits waiting for the light to overflow
The gray's come uninvited and she shall not have her sun
think about whether you'd rejoice if you were the chosen one.
the winners write the history and religion writes the rules
but prophecies are nothing acted out by men and fools.
we take chances on nothing and hold our secrets high
chances taken long ago gave birth to the immaculate lie

chorus 1:
ooh, mary mary what burdens you carry
heart and mind both broken, damage no one would believe
ooh, mary mary what scars you must carry
sin runs in the family running all the way back to Eve.

Song of the day

One of my favorites rom Childhood:
Nuttin' for Christmas