Is this just my inferiority complex?

[valarltd]

Been thinking a lot lately about home-made gifts.

As a kid, I was a screw-up. Nothing ever turned out right, it was always messy or torn or ugly.

So...

Even though I've outgrown the awkward stage, why does it feel like I'm still giving messy pictures in badly-glued popsicle stick frames when I'm giving hand-made Barbie clothes and gorgeous woolen scarves?

Why do I keep thinking "hand-made" means "cheap" and "tacky" and "70's"?

How do I get rid of the old scripts that say "cost is everything" and "your time has no dollar value?"

Or is it just my familial dysfunctions turning up?
The knowing that no matter what I make, my mother could make it better, prettier and faster?

I now remember why I hate the holidays.

Oh, opening matinees went well.
Tonight is the Christmas Parade. The high is supposed to be 31 degrees. Daughter is on the Nutcracker float and Son and I are marching with the Cub Scouts.

Brrrrr!

Comments

[jkb.livejournal.com]

Would it help if I told you that even the little tiny handmade things you gave me are adorable and well-made, and that even though I gushed on and on about the SW laserdisc, I was thrilled and touched by all those things -- I especially like the cute little cornucopia (OK, the sheep think it's a kind of hat, and I don't have the heart to tell them that they shouldn't wear it on their heads) -- because you made them for me. And I've seen the piccies of your really elaborate stuff on your site, so I can say with confidence that if you're making woolen scarves and what-not for people, they are very fortunate indeed. And so you need to just snap out of that inferiority complex thingee you've got going on. *g*

I'm still making my things for Xmas. I don't knit or sew or do any of *that* kind of making stuff, but other kinds, usually involving a computer in some way.

<snerkage>

[valarltd.livejournal.com]

Now why am I seeing your sheep wearing the cornucopia like a wizard's hat and one saying "Let's play at Harry Potter. I'll be Dumbledore and you can be Nicholas Flamiel and we'll play 'where's the wand' over my desk..."